Pedal to the Metal

Do you ever feel like your life in constantly in the fast lane? I do! I am constantly saying "when things slow down." I guess I need to get out of denial and accept that life isn't going to slow down and just try to enjoy each day. It is so hard to balance family, friends, work, extra activities, committees, workouts, etc. and yet keep my sanity and be 100% into whatever I am doing at that moment. This has been somewhat of a trying week. I use to never let myself cry because I felt it was weakness and I have come to realize what healing there is in crying, it is like freedom to be weak and that is ok. What a concept! And what an idiot I have been for so long! Sometimes I don't have it all together and a good cry reminds me that I am who I am and not in this life alone, that I am so blessed, that I have a wonderful nonperfect life! Who cares if I "drop my basket" sometimes? My daughter Sydney showed me a perfect example of why not to give up. Last night at gymnastics, the girls had to climb this rope that was about 15 feet in the air. She got about 1/2 way up the first time and then slid back down, well she cheered on the others and a few made it to the top where there is a bell that they ring and everyone claps. She got up to go the 2nd time, looked at me, smiled and climbed up without hesitation and rung the bell! When she came down, she looked at me again, nodded like "ok, I did it." I was so proud of her and got teary and thought if my 7 year old can look me in the eyes with that kind of determination, then I can look life straight on with that same determination. I love that girl! Her motto is pedal to the metal!